Tuesday, 9/17/24 – Reflection on Aging, Life Transitions, and Slowing Down
As I sit in my recliner, surrounded by the quiet sounds of my home, I can’t help but ask myself, “Is this what it’s like to be old?” To lose mobility, to feel stuck, and to watch life move by at a pace you can’t quite keep up with. With every day spent recovering from surgery, I’ve begun to see life from a different vantage point—a place of stillness, slowness, and introspection.
Aging and the Loss of Mobility
For weeks now, I’ve had to rely on crutches and a walker, unable to walk freely or move without pain. There are moments when I wonder, “Is this what it feels like to be homebound? To rely on others for help with even the simplest tasks?” The loss of mobility brings with it a loss of independence, and that’s a hard reality to face. I find myself asking, “What happens when life is reduced to sitting still, observing, and reflecting?” This is something many people face as they grow older, or when life throws an unexpected curveball their way.
Nature’s Dance and Life’s Changes
As I sit here, the wind chimes play a soft melody, and the trees outside dance in the breeze. It’s a gentle reminder that life is always moving, even when we feel stuck. The fall equinox is approaching, and I can feel the seasons changing—nature preparing for the slower, more reflective days of autumn. There’s a sense of peace that comes with this transition, a time to let go and rest, much like my own healing journey.
The tropical storm that recently moved through brought cooler temperatures and steady winds, almost as if nature, too, is preparing to slow down and embrace the change. There’s something beautiful about the way the earth responds to these natural cycles. It reminds me that my own healing is part of a greater rhythm, one that requires patience, trust, and time.
Letting Go of Preconceived Ideas
With all this time on my hands, I’ve had the opportunity to reflect more deeply on life. This process reminds me of the teachings from Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender by David Hawkins. In his book, Hawkins talks about how surrendering doesn’t mean giving up but rather letting go of resistance to reality. I’m learning how to let go of preconceived ideas about what I think life should look like. We often have these grand visions of how things will unfold, but in reality, life rarely goes according to plan.
One moment, everything seems to be moving along smoothly, and the next, something unexpected happens—a health crisis, an accident, or even a chance encounter that changes everything. Letting Go has taught me that when we release our expectations and accept life as it is, we find peace.
The world has a way of shifting us in directions we never anticipated. Sometimes it’s a book we read, a conversation with a stranger, or a walk in nature that opens our eyes to a new perspective. Other times, it’s a traumatic event that shakes us to our core and forces us to reevaluate everything. And through all of it, we’re constantly reminded of the fleeting nature of our plans and the unpredictable course of life.
A Journey of Self-Discovery
This period of forced downtime has given me the space I’ve been craving—a chance to sort through the questions, the “why’s,” and the “what if’s” of my life. Why am I here, dealing with these physical limitations? What is this experience trying to teach me?
In many ways, this recovery has been an unexpected gift. I’ve had time to dive deeper into my personal self-discovery and the wisdom from Gene Keys: Embracing Your Higher Purpose by Richard Rudd. Gene Keys speaks of how life is always unfolding for our highest potential, even in challenging moments. This idea has been guiding me as I reflect on my recovery journey and the new possibilities it presents.
One of the most profound moments in my spiritual exploration happened during an Ayahuasca ceremony, where I was introduced to the teachings of Richard Rudd through a powerful video titled “Forgiveness – The Spirit of Unconditional Love.” The message of forgiveness and unconditional love spoke deeply to me, especially as I navigate this journey of healing. I want to share that same video with you all, as it may resonate with anyone who is also learning to forgive—both themselves and others—through life’s difficulties.
With the physical limitations I’m facing, there’s no room for distraction. I can’t throw myself into work or play like I used to, and in that stillness, I’m finding clarity. It’s a chance to explore new ways of living, new possibilities for how I want to move forward once I’m fully healed. I’ve always envisioned myself as a storyteller, and maybe this is my time to step into that role—to share my journey with the world and, in doing so, help others who might be facing similar challenges.
A Time for Rest and Reflection
As fall approaches, I can’t help but feel that this season of my life mirrors the changing seasons outside. Autumn is a time for slowing down, for letting go, and for preparing for the rest that winter brings. In many ways, that’s exactly where I am—slowing down, reflecting, and allowing myself to rest. It’s not easy to embrace stillness, especially when the world around us is constantly pushing for more, but I’m learning to surrender to it.
This isn’t the life I imagined, but it’s the one I’m living, and I’m learning to embrace it, even with all its uncertainty. There’s a freedom that comes with letting go of expectations and simply being present in the moment, even when that moment feels challenging. And in this space of stillness, I’m finding new dreams, new possibilities, and a new sense of purpose.
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Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu – May All Beings Be Happy and Free